“Just when I thought it couldn’t get any worse… 2020 is definitely the most fucked up year I’ve ever witnessed!” wrote Nick. “After waking up & barely rising from my own dark contemplation of continuing my physical existence on this planet, this powerful warrior actually had the balls to do it.”
Just days before, he alarmed fans and friends after sharing a cryptic post, which ended with “Goodnight. Enjoy Earth.” He also tagged his location in “Heaven.”
The dark thoughts follow the death of his friend, Ryan Bowers, an up-and-coming rapper who Nick signed to his label. He was shot in his home last year by a San Diego police officer and was in a coma for months. After learning to walk and talk again, he ultimately took his own life.
“We almost made it little bro! But I guess even flying Super Heros have to land eventually,” Nick wrote in his emotional tribute. “But I am certain that your energy will never die and your Spirit is eternal, so I ask you still to forgive me for letting you down Warrior.”
It’s been a tumultuous week for Cannon. The 39-year-old was ousted from “Wild ‘N Out” after making anti-Semitic comments during an interview with former Public Enemy member Professor Griff during his podcast “Cannon’s Class.” His talk show has been delayed until 2021, but he will retain his hosting gig on “The Masked Singer.” He has apologized to the Jewish community, but received backlash from his own community for his apology.
Nick ended his message to Ryan on a somber note. “I can’t help but think if I wasnt so engulfed in my own bullshit I could’ve been there for you when you finally took your life after several attempts,” he said, adding, “Fuck this place!! #CantWin #ForLosing.”
Celebrities including Diddy, T.I., Cedric the Entertainer, and Master P have shared their support for Cannon in the wake of the fallout.