Mel B has an upcoming Spice Girls reunion tour to sit up for, however 4 years in the past, she was in a a lot darker place. The singer and X Factor decide tried suicide in 2014, a harrowing second she's candidly recounted in her upcoming memoir, Brutally Honest.
"Here I’m, 39 years of age, staring in a mirror within the en-suite rest room of my rented home in Kensington, London, holding an open bottle of aspirin from the stash I’ve stockpiled over time, placing one capsule after one other into my mouth," she writes in an guide excerpt revealed by the U.Okay.'s The Sun. "As every capsule goes into my mouth, I ask myself: 'Are you positive?' And I take one other one. Ten, 20, 50, 100. 'Are you positive?'"
"It’s Thursday night time," she continues within the reported excerpt. "11 December 2014. I’ve come again from dinner with my husband Stephen. Tomorrow I’m going to The X Factor. It would be the red-carpet launch for the ultimate weekend. I’ll be sporting a gorgeous costume, my hair and make-up can be good. But if you need absolutely the fact, I don’t care about any of it. My life is a multitude and I would like out."
Mel B , who was going through issues in her marriage with then-husband Stephen Belafonte, says she felt "emotionally battered" and "estranged from my household" and that she went on to take a complete of 200 drugs. (The couple went on to divorce in 2017, after 10 years of marriage.)
She writes: "I can’t keep in mind the ache however I can nonetheless keep in mind the worry, panic and absolute confusion in my head. Then the whole lot began to go black and I collapsed to my knees. I might really feel the life in me beginning to drain away."
The singer realized she made a mistake and was transported to the hospital, the place she was handled by medical doctors who informed her it was unrealistic to return to The X Factor the subsequent day. She says she caught to her dedication, with bruises on present and with out her wedding ceremony ring.
Mel B says every of her fellow Spice Girls tried to get in contact along with her, however she refused to speak to them on the time. "I wasn’t prepared, and I used to be too ashamed," she says.
Read the total excerpt from Brutally Honest right here. The guide is about for a Nov. 27 launch.